Let me walk through something with you guys.
In 2012 lots of stuff was falling apart, so I went to therapy. Blah blah blah, Bipolar II. Blah blah blah, I can handle this. Yadda yadda I quit therapy. Almost 2 years later I end up back in therapy because things are again not going well.
Then today.... at the end of today's session, New Therapist (Meg2.0) tells me, "hey, I'd like to lift something off of you if you're ok with that." Well sure! You can do anything you want to!
"I want to lift that Bipolar II diagnosis off of you. I've been with you for a bunch of months now and I've heard a lot of things about your life now and your life in the past... and I'm sure a lot of things really do look like bipolar II, but I'm here to tell you right now- it's not that. You don't have that. You have different challenges, but not that. So I'm sorry to drop this on you at the end, and we will definitely talk about it more later. But there you go."
Thud. And also yay. And also also. Wow.
I'm not sure what even to think about this. I'm not sure I totally believe her yet. I have a lot to think about. But if it's true that I don't have that particular flavor of crazy, then a lot of things I think about myself are totally different. A lot of the things I've been afraid of don't exist anymore. A lot of things I thought were permanent, or inevitable, or impossible, are totally changed.
SO much to think about.
2 comments:
Hmmm... very exciting. And interesting. Good luck in your exploring this and share with us where you can / feel comfortable doing so.
How interesting! You're the second friend in the last couple months whose bipolar disorder diagnosis has been...up for review. I know mental illness diagnosis is an art as much as it's a science...I wonder what a new and different diagnosis will mean for you and your treatment. I'm interested to hear more when you're ready to share :)
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